I have absolutely no time to have lunch outside my own office, let alone to blog. But I promised to show Jul and Yiwen the video I saw on MJ with him doing beatboxing on his song Who Is It on the Oprah show back in 1993. Mind you, that interview was an event by itself. It is one of the most famous TV interviews that MJ had done to date, other than the Living with Michael Jackson Interview in 2003 of course. (I am sure a lot of you guys watched that...)

Ok so here goes. Lots of the copy of the videos were deleted by Youtube btw, so if you want to catch this, better make it quick.



I have no idea that he can beatbox, and it's really good. Now I know how come Justin Timberlake wants to learn beat boxing...

Will blog about my graduation and other stuff soon. I know I am overdue on such stuff, but I am really bogged down by work these days.

I hate going to work these days because I know there are stuff I need to handle personally. Sigh =(

I just finished watching the Michael Jackson's Memorial on the MTV website (Channel 5 is still showing. They are a couple of minutes slow).

I never expect that I will be so moved actually. I welled up many times, dropped tears many times, such as during Mariah's performance, when his brother said that maybe finally people will leave him alone (about his ridicule) and during Brooke Shield's speech when she said we should smile while we are aching.

But the last straw is when his daughter Paris said "I loved him so much". Tears just came out like a tap... that is a rare moment whereby one realised that he was really not just a musician, he was a father too.

And it suddenly hit me at that moment. Life is really fragile. We should really count our blessings.

Like what Smokey Robinson said, I am glad that I live to see him alive. Although I was born too late to see him at his peak, but I was born in time to catch him in some performances. I saw him about 6 years ago on a Channel 5 show called American Greatest something, in which he was a special star. He sang Dangerous.... Well, at least I saw him performed when he was still alive. I still get to enjoy him in some ways, and I think that kind of experience, that kind of genius, will take many many years to get one again.

My colleague asked me whether I am a fan. I said, I don't consider myself as one, because to be fair to the other fans in the world, being his fan means trying to learn his moonwalk, learning to dance like him, to be donning those red jackets and sequined glove. But I am a believer in his music, and I enjoyed them.

Alright, I think I better go to bed. I am not going to work today, and I stayed up to watch this memorial. Out of interest perhaps, but I think also, a small part, to get some closure. He really grew on me.

Despite what happened in his life, I will choose to remember his music genius and humanitarian work.

Let's celebrate life today=)

RIP Michael

Sorry for those people who don't understand how come I feel this way, but I think I am a little more emotional this week, and also, more sensitive to my surrounding these days.

I bought a couple of magazines and a greatest hits album of Michael Jackson on thursday...

Originally wanted to wait till the record company that has the rights to his songs to release a greatest hits album (with more songs I presume since he passed away), but I saw this album's songs (released in 2005) are pretty complete and so I bought it. Have been looking for the Time's magazine for some time so might as well bought it. And bought the 8 days because there are free gifts along with it.

I know I know. I am like one of those people that went to buy celebrities that passed away stuff right? I always been interested in MJ's songs (ever since I heard You Rock My World), just now I never got the urge to buy them. I think his death is kinda the catalyst for it.... I am still looking forward to other things from him, such as a dvd of his mtvs (I am hopeful about it), albums with songs that were never released etc. I am also a little interested in buying the Dangerous album, because I kinda like a lot of the songs inside. But just thinking nia...

Jul asked me which mtv I was interested in. So might as well tell everyone here that I am interested in keeping these mtvs...

1. In the Closet. I never heard of this song before, and I think Black or White sort of overshadowed this song. But I love the arrangement, the sexy appeal of this song (when MJ sang in whispers) and also the simplicity of the mtv! Sometimes I think MJ's MTV a little to complicated for my liking... And I think if this song is released now, people will also take it as a modern song. It's is so like the music we heard these days! I can actually imagine Justin Timberlake doing this song...

2. Remember the Time. If you see carefully, got Iman (the supermodel) and Eddie Murphy. I like the last part's chreography.

3. Bad. Not a fave to the song, but I like the dancing. Not to mention, it is directed by Martin Scorsese. Btw, MJ is supposed to duet this song with Prince, but Prince thought that the song will already be a hit without him. But I also heard reports saying that Prince felt weird singing the lyrics "Your butt is mine"... Click on this link to watch on youtube because they dun allow embedding...

4. Smooth Criminal. Gravity defying lean!

5. Black or White. The last part of people morphing is very interesting. Actually the whole video is interesting lah. Got dancing indians and with the home alone star... Anyway, if you look closely, the people morphing part got Tyra Banks...

Have been watching Ch20 a lot these days, because there are a lot of mtvs and live footage of MJ showing on the channel... and yes I pretty much like his faster songs. Although his ballads are beautiful (like You Are Not Alone), I find them too long. Plus, I can never get tired of his faster songs...

I am a little upset as to how his life turned out. He wasn't even given the chance to comeback the way he wanted... It's kinda awful to think that he died when he was at the bottom. I think it's more humane if he finished the concerts and passed away when he was at his peak. Now, although people are praising him everywhere around the globe, he was, to a lot of people, a has-been, not a always-been. He could have been an always-been, but now he is forever a has-been. He would want to prove that he got it in him...

I sometimes wondered whether plastic surgery has done him in. Maybe somehow or rather, he cut short his life by reshaping his nose whereby he could have had a long life if he kept his old nose. Aiya, my mum always said, all famous people, pretty much don't live long enough to see their kids having grandchildren...

Anyway, work has been bad. Got a lot of urgent things that I have to lookinto personally, not to mention I think my boss was in a bad mood these days.... seen a few office politics stuff going on also. Damn sian lah. Sometimes I wish that the working world can be like the school world, whereby I can be the person I want to be without worrying any backlash. The only good thing was that I went back to NUS to collect my grad gown with Yiwen, because it is a break from work. Wen, jul and I are already waiting for the first moment to book Harry Potter tickets.

I wish I was never in this position in the first place. I am tired of handling people in general.

It's hard to be misunderstood and to be thrown in such situations.

I normally do not care how people think, but unfortunately this time I do.

I hate this....

I am really misunderstood. And it's is not my fault (ie I did not portray this, whether intentionally or not).

Damn it.

No amount of "I hate this" is enough to justify how I really hate this...

And all a sudden I understood how MJ must have felt. LONELY.

Sigh, life is really hard. People are really complex creatures.