So long nv update le... ever since my the Grasshoppers' Concert. Btw, I am still crazy over them... Haha. I guess this is another craze that everyone around me has to cope with...

So, I bought their chinese compliation!! Haha... thinking whether I should buy cantonese compliation or the chinese compliation but decided to buy the chinese version because I know nuts about cantonese!! Haha... Plus the cantonese version costs $34 vs the chinese's $18. Haha.. But the album cover of the chinese version damn corny la... It says "草蜢超猛"... Jul, Yiwen and I were laughing so badly over this thing... Haha.. But the album is awesome. Brings back so many memories..

And I finished watching the concert DVD. They were so good... I had to clap after I finished the entire 3 concert DVDs. My mum watched with me too and she was in awe. We rarely see so professional artists really giving their all in performing for their fans. The Hk Fans were really passionate abt them too. When Grasshoppers asked them whether they had enough of the concert, they kept screaming 'NO!!' I am just so amazed.

Poor HT, who is my partner intern with me. We were supposed to work on a project together. She had to listen to me talking about Grasshoppers the entire wk alr but I dun think I will stop talking about them for a while. Sorry girl!! Actually, the other interns who are working at the same level had to hear me speak about them the entire wk during lunch... poor them too. They actually planned a KTV yesterday, but I planned to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with Jul they all and so never go. They planned to stop me from singing Grasshoppers' songs lo!! So evil!!

HT and I both faced the same problem. I said to her, office politics I can handle. I handled them before, though indirectly but still got a little experience. But weird people, I can't handle. Luckily this time it's both of us handling them together... I shivered to think that if I have to handle this project on my own and handle these kind of people alone... what will I do?

Anyway, there is this female boss that we are working for. I had to take my hat off her. She is very business-like and very smart. But she is very nice to us as well. Hearing her speak just fills me with awe for her. She speaks smartly and for this, this is the first time I ever see such a smart person. Opened my eyes so much. Learnt so much from her and from the internship I am having now. Glad that I took up this offer.

Anyway, I found this Grasshopper's video on youtube again. It's for 忘情森巴舞... and looking at their outfits I had to laugh.. OMG!! What kind of fashion we are having huh??

And I watched Pirates of the Caribbean 3. I prefered the second one. Too many mini-plots that lost me halfway. But I don't like the ending... call me old-fashioned, but I prefered a nice fairy-tale ending to it. Sighz. Not everyone can have what they want huh?

Better sign off. Cheerios!!

Super high from the concert la. My ears are ringing so badly after the concert because the music was very very loud!! At first I had my little regrets after buying the tickets because after all, it's $200 gone. I wasn't sure whether I made the right choice of going anot. But now, no regrets!! It was a fabulous concert, with a little flaws in my opinion.

They sang many songs, a lot of them where I don't know la. Some songs that I know are like 半点心，爱恋她的代价， 宝贝对不起，失恋，失恋阵线联盟，我们，忘情森芭舞，爱不怕，Lonely, Forever... haha.. A lot of them in cantonese. I think only 爱恋她的代价， 宝贝对不起 and 爱不怕 are sung in mandarin. The rest in cantonese. They spoke in cantonese too, so I had to ask my mum to translate so many times. Lucky got her man...

Yeah...

GRASSHOPPER CONCERT, HERE I COME!!!

I sounded more excited than my mum... hahaha. But it's kinda exciting la. Still need to brush up my song knowledge for them but it's ok. Prepared to have fun tml.

Shall try to post lots of pictures and videos of them here!! But it's sure gonna be a bit small since I didn't buy the frontmost seat...

SO EXCITING!! CAN'T WAIT FOR TML!!!

Cheerios.

Haha... searching for songs now. But got to sleep soon...

Just finished watching American Idol... and I hope Jordan wins!! Hahaha...

So tired now. Me and my project partner were trying not to stone the entire day. We ended up having to put eye drops in our eyes all the time because they were so dry!! And she thought my fave colour is pink... cos I have been wearing something pink since I started work!! Come to think of it, it IS true. It wasn't on purpose. It is just that I don't have that many office wear to alternate between days and most of those clothes happened to be in pink... We and other interns and temps ( I think in total 9 of us) went for lunch tog and the rec club today and I realised that table soccer is really hard to play but fun!! Haha...

Tml's presentation. Both of me and my partner kinda stressed cos we felt that one of the ppl we are presenting tml is kinda expecting a lot of things but we are not sure we met the criteria.. Haiz. We shall know tml.

I am surprised nobody commented on my song on my blog yet. I thought some people might have screamed at me for having such an old song on my blog. Wait till after sat... I think from then I will be even more crazy over them. Today during lunch I was saying like maybe those ppl in front of the stage are close enough to see the grasshopper members' sweat. They should probably collected them in small bottles man... or even big bottles cos I think they should be sweating a lot la. Haha... Poor HT. She had to endure me singing 爱恋她的代价 and 忘情森芭舞suddenly in the room when we are working... lol...

Go to bed le!! Gd night!!

P.S Does anyone know how to get to Indoor stadium from kallang mrt? I have no idea how to go there...

Real work started yesterday... got presentation on thurs!! Ah... so nervous. Got to rush out the ppt by tml then. Me and another intern are on tight deadlines so yeah, got to work!! A couple of things happened during work, but I think I will post this during the wkend.

Yes, I finally bought the tickets. Not the very ex one. I bought the ones that I can afford la. I told my mum that both of us need to be familiar with Grasshoppers songs before this sat for their concert or else we malu. So I went researching on the web to look for their old songs! And I decided to take out Ne-yo's song for a while for this grasshoppers' song first!! Will put back the ne-yo song soon! But this song first!! I know it makes my blog sounds old and retro, but heck care la. I think some of us need some memories from the past for a while, given the types of canto and mando pop we are listening to these days.

Jul and her bro likes their songs too.. which is very funny. I think I kinda got them infected with the 'disease'... and I told jul about the handsome guy and said he has 6 pecs. Here is a picture to prove to u girl!! (Check out this link (http://www.grasshopperhk.com/) and click under magazines, channel M!!)

Better go to bed... cya.

Cheerios!!

Song Lyrics:
忘情森巴舞草蜢

情人寻新欢你有你苦闷
为何仍痴心学我继续耍玩
来忘怀失恋道别是那心酸
来狂情狂歌狂起舞吧
快与我跳这个森巴舞吧
从前情人不管

一起森巴舞拨走不满
发泄发泄你苦闷
一起森巴舞弹开不满
让痛快与困恼交换 woo

情人如啤酒罐掉下了要再去呼唤
情人寻新欢去你也要去反叛
情场人打转别为旧爱兜圈
来狂情狂歌狂起舞吧
快与我跳这个森巴舞吧
忘怀从前不欢
让痛快与困恼交换
one two three

Yiwen, Melissa, Me, Kak Ling and Karen... with our big prop, our 'computer'

A close-up on our big prop... our 'computer'!!

And I am loving this song now!! It's Ne-yo's Because of you.. makes me feel so relax whenever I hear this song...

I guess that's it. Anyway, today's Mother's Day. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY EVERYONE!!

Ah... so nervous now. Losing my freedom tml. So good to be at home for the entire day FINALLY but I am losing all of it tml. I am researching on the company and the project I am supposed to work on now... Left it to now cos I was so tired from tuition that I never had the time to research on them.

I am so freaking scared. What if I screwed up tml? What if I screwed up the entire internship? Ah... is it a good idea to go on this internship?

This is part of the government instuition, so I am very scared that I don't live up to their expectations. I kept thinking, if I had taken a temp job, maybe I won't be in such a situation of buying the grasshoppers' concert tickets because I have more cash on me. Jul told me interns are not required to have cpf contribution but I wasn't sure... if there is no cpf contribution then it's really good news for me. But I am in it for the experience. I guess this is a very rare opportunity for me. Better treasure it man before making any judgement on this.

Die la.. so scared. Not a good sign. I hope everything will go well tml. Cannot be late tml.

Better off researching before going to bed. Cheerios. Won't be blogging so often now, I guess.

Went to scout where is my working place today... or else I will be like a headless fly on fri. Pull Jul to go with me. Turns out to be really close to Bugis Junction. So I guess I can eat many different types of food when I am working!! Thank goodness...

And then we went shopping a little while waiting for Yiwen to finish her tuition. Saw a top I like but $30... I kinda can't part with the money. We met Wee Inn as well.. And guess what? We also saw so many Grasshoppers 草蜢 posters around... all publicising their concert next wk. Aiya, my mum don't want me to spend so much money on 2 tickets to watch them. She warned me. But I kinda feel that she wants it though. I think their concert looks interesting and happening. I told her last night already that she shouldn't worry. I should be the one worrying because obviously I was too young to be in love with them then!! Then we saw this promotion that says that if we spend $30 in a day at bugis junction, we can have a chance to win the tickets!! Double chance if we eat at selected restaurants!!

So we went to Swensen's after yiwen arrived. And I kinda made them order $30 of food so that I qualify for the contest. We laughed so much during the meal (yiwen, a bed of rose hor??) and talked about jobs and internships. And of course, my dilema with 草蜢. Then yiwen had to leave, leaving me and jul to go to the sistic counter to get the form for the contest.

Almakz, almost had to argue with the person there to give me another form. She gave me only 1 form lo!! The manager never told her properly that eating at some restaurants will have double chance. And me and jul almost kenna the shock of our lives. We saw this auntie filling up about 6 forms for the contest. 6!!! I was super embarrassed. And when we went to peep into the boxes that contains the contest forms, we saw a number of forms with IC numbers starting with '1' or '7'. I saw a couple with '74'. Jul told me, "There is no one with an IC number starting with an '8'." Win liao, I am trying to participate a contest that is out of my region.

Told my mum about it. I think she wants to go, but I am not sure. She hides her feelings quite well this time. But I told her, if I buy her the tickets, she can't expect me to buy her a birthday gift this yr. The tickets will be her birthday and mother's day present. She still don't want!! Almakz, hard to please le. Don't know what to do.

Haiz. I shall wait a few days before deciding what to do. I haven't find the IE things that I had to read. Shit!!

Anyway, while talking to yiwen and jul about 草蜢 (which they like too... haha we liking old stuffs these days), I promised them that I shall look for some of their old videos and put them here. Haha... Here goes again.

1. 半点心

2.失恋阵线联盟

There are others, which includes (Just click on the links):

1. 恋爱征兆
2. 爱恋她的代价

Oh boy, my blog suddenly feels so old. But I have a song that has been running in my head for days, and I love this song. It's from the Cranberries lead singer Dolores O'riordan's new song called Ordinary Day.

I know there is a lot of videos at the moment right now and it is kinda hard to swallow but take ya time!!

Cheerios!!

I am seriously worried for my dear boy boy tutee. Today is the "maths day" because he has a maths paper on tues. Wah... U have no idea how worried I was. He still can't do fractions and can't understand "2/5 of 40 apples" is 2/5 X 40. He still take 40 - 2/5... and fractions (I guess) is going to take up a lot of percentage of his paper so I am very very worried... I seriously hope he remembers everything I said and taught him. I taught him EVERYTHING in EVERY method I know... and to think he said I was evil when I gave him homework... better than last time when he said me 卑鄙无耻 (shameless) when he doesn't even know what does that phrase means.

The funny thing is, he had his english paper today. English is actually the least worried paper for me. His mother felt that he does not have enough homework, and pressured me in giving him more. In the end, I gave him 7 compos, 8 compres and a lot of other english exercises. True, his english sentences are still atrocious, but at least I felt that he improved. It used to be maths that I am the least worried. What a difference.

But the most worried paper for me is science... does not know when is boiling, melting, freezing and condensation. Haiz. Will worry about that on wed when I give him tuition.

LOL... my mum just watched my recorded charity show and again, she likes the Grasshoppers草蜢 a lot. We (yes me too) like them quite a bit, esp the lead singer (cos he is the most cute one). My mum likes their dancing but I like their performance. I remembered I used to like them because they kept jumping around the stage when they performed... ok I know very childish but I was like 4 or 5 years old when they started!!! But seriously, they really know how to put up a good show. I don't know anyone of you guys know, but they are the students of the late Anita Mui. Now we are comtemplating whether we should buy their concert tickets (it's too expensive!!)...

Oh boy they looked so young then...

**Speaking of Anita Mui, I just remembered one of her greatest movies Rouge 胭脂扣way back in 1988. It's a little freaking at times, but I love the chemistry she had with Leslie Cheng. That is, in my opinion, one of the best oldie movies. Recommended, if u guys have a way to get that show....

Oh well, I am nursing a headache. I shall go to bed. Cheerios.

Ok, I should talk about internship.

As everyone who read my blog know, I went for an interview last fri. Most of you thought I got the internship from that interview (as least, that is what I presumed). But no, it is not. Let me get back to the beginning.

I know that I screwed up that interview and hence I sort of know that that company would not selected me. But this internship I had now was a surprise. BBA career office called me a couple of times on thurs but I did not pick up becos I did not hear my phone ring. But I got an email from that office telling me that I got the internship from a company that I had applied LONG LONG LONG ago. I was like HUHZ? How come I got the internship? And when the person from BBA called me on fri, she told me that the company offered me the internship. WITHOUT INTERVIEW. I was super shocked. I accepted it and hence, I am starting on next fri.

Actually, they wanted me to start on Mon 7 May but I can't because my tutee got exams and I had agreed to a extensive tuition for that wk. Anyway, it was stated that the internship starts on 14 may. But the company actually agreed to wait for me. The person in the BBA career office called me and make me so stressed. She said that I was very lucky because previously they selected from a rigorous interview sessions and selections. They also wanted scholars. I was neither. She told me to go and read up on the company and my duties because they agreed to wait for me till fri. I was like, OMG... what had I land myself into??

I am very happy that I am going for this internship. Actually, I was prepared to run to job agencies next wk for temp assignments. At that pt of time (before I was offered this internship), I still don't know whether I should take up an internship or a temp job. At least now, I don't have to worry about looking for temp jobs or internships anymore. But I have to be selective in what I buy because I am not paid a lot for this. So no shopping spree this 3 months hols!!

The only slight regret I had is that another company called me for an interview after I accepted this internship. This company's internship is the one that I really wanted because this is a pure marketing internship. But sighz, I had already gave my word. Plus, this company is only asking for an interview. But there is a small possibility that I may have gotten what I wanted... sighz.

So internship story over. In a nutshell that is not exactly short. So now I have to read up on this company and other stuff... so stressed now.

Anyway, Spiderman 3 was awesome!! Good fighting sequences, gd story, gd everything!! Plus I think Tobey is getting cuter and cuter. I can't wait for all the next blockbusters... Here is my list:

1. Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End (ORLANDO!!)
2. Shrek 3
3. Fantastic 4 (CHRIS!!)
4. Ocean's Thirteen (I don't even know who to scream for... there is Brad, Clooney and Damon here)
5. HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX (of course la right?? I am a big fan!! I just hope the movie is not VERY CUT given that this bk is the thickest harry potter's bk to date)

I can't remember the rest... I named the above off the top of my head. Btw, I still haven't pre-order the harry potter book because I am still waiting for better offers to come along... LOL...

I better go. I still got so much to say but I haven't got the time. Had to rush out for a while and I haven't bathe!! Maybe will blog tonight.

Anyway, I hope everyone likes this new song on my blog... I tot it was so sexy and seductive. Been hearing this song for a while but I don't know the title of the song until I saw the guy singing on the latest episode of American Idol... Here is the music video...

I might as well throw in the best performance from last week's American Idol... BLAKE!!! His rendition of "You Give Love a Bad Name" was amazing...

Cheerios!!

Guess what? I just got an internship!! Will talk more about it later when I get back from tuition. Cheerios!!

I don't understand, how can u make such promises to me without fulfilling them? U make me believe all of it is true again and again. But instead, u disappointed me time and time again.

I don't understand. Why are u treating me this way? What have I done wrong? What's wrong with me? It's obvious that u are lying to me. So why are u lying to me? I rather u tell me the truth, that u don't want to be alone with me.

Don't give me empty promises. Don't let me do all the work and fill with hope just to be disappointed by u. Don't cook up some grandmother story just to get out of I asked u. If u are not willing, tell me. I would rather that. It's obvious that u are lying. That was bad lying. Unless u have a reason for what u do, don't try explaining to me.

I don't even know when u show ur concern to me, u are trying to make up ur mistake or really concerned about me.

Heck it, u are not reading this anyway. U don't care that much about me to read what I had got to say.

Everyone listen up. Lie to me all u want, but make sure u cover ur tracks. Don't be a bad liar. If I ever find out that u lied to me, I probably won't flare up against u, but I will remember that once upon my life, u lied to me. And it will be hard to earn my trust again.

I sound like a total bitch. I could lie to everyone right now that I will forget that u lied to me before but that is a form of lying as well. And I am not about to sink to that level.

I was actually in a good mood today when this happened. Wanted to blog abt my BENJI SCHWIMMER, the guy who won So You Think You Can Dance 2. He's in singapore doing the dance floor finale and some workshops. ( I actually can't believe that mediacorp actually invited him and even more surprised when he agreed to appear!! That was the first time I ever watched The Dance Floor in full.) If u guys are interested, here are the details at this url:http://community.livejournal.com/sg_dancers/24901.html

A NITE WITH BENJI SCHWIMMER
Winner of "So You Think You Can Dance"
Date: 30th April 2007, Monday
Venue: Upper Club, CHIJMES
Time: 7.30 - 11.00 PM
Price: SG$120 (Inclusive of International Dinner Buffet)

SWAZZ (Swing Jazz)Benji Schwimmer's Dance Workshop
Date: 1st May 2007, Tuesday
Time: 2.00 - 3.30 PM (Swazz) / 4.00 - 5.30 PM (Swing)Price: SG$50 per session

Irene might be interested if she is reading this. Though it's not her type of dancing. But I sent her an sms anyway.

Trying to get Benji's flight information now...

Anyway, I found some of my secondary compo work that I had done way back in 2002. I re-read it again and can't believe I wrote such a compo before. I kinda wan to post it here a little cos it suits what I am feeling right now (in case u don't know, I am feeling LOST AND DESPERATE AND CONFUSED right now...) but I am typing this from memory cos I lazy to dig out that piece of paper. So here goes...

P.S. I was writing from a guy's perspective.

The day started as normal. Students gathered around the classroom corridors in the morning, waiting for the school day to start. I was standing along with my buddies, who were talking about the new things happening in our lives. But I was not paying attention to them. Instead, I was cranking my neck trying to look past my buddy's shoulder, waiting for it to happen. Finally, it did.

At first, it was just a small figure. But slowly, as she walked towards me, her delicate features, her easy smile and her beautiful piercing eyes became more distinct. On her way, she turned around and greeted her friends happily, with her high ponytail swaying gracefully sideways. One by one, she finally passed many people and reached my group of friends.

"Hey guys. Good morning," Mandy said. That was all I was waiting for each morning.

That's it. The beginning of the compo. I shall decide whether I want to release the entire compo out here on my blog. Anyway, the copyright of this composition belongs ENTIRELY to me!! You need to acknowledge if u want to use it... disclaimer here just in case there are people out there having weird ideas...

I know the compo sounds totally juvenile (but I still got a rather high score for this particular essay) but please remember that I was only 16 then. Not much of life experiences, plenty of imagination. Full of hope of what ur love life can be. As u can tell, my love life is zlich because I just can't be bothered right now. I used to think that u got to chase for the life u want. But this aspect of life does not fall in that category. It is more like 可遇不可求。

Wei Wei once told me that she believed that there is someone in the world for everyone. I guess she meant that u have to find that someone. But I remembered reading from somewhere that says that don't bother looking for that someone. If u find a person who u think u can love and live with the rest of ur life, stick to that person. U don't have to be crazily in love to live with a person forever. This makes me think that maybe some people who are taken are not with the person they should be. Based Wei Wei's theory, then there will be some people who can't find that special someone in their lives. So weiwei, how ar?

Don't bother if u don't understand. I am in a weird mood. Now I don't even know what I am feeling right now.

在深夜里

在深夜里，在静悄里，有谁和我一样，感到孤独，沮丧呢？
可能，在这深夜里，没有城市的喧闹，我找到了心中平静。

或许有一天，你能领悟到，我现在的感受
又或许有一天，你能理解出，我现在的心情

我只希望有一天，你能记得我
当初的我，
没烦恼的我 ,
开心快乐的我。

--范瑜芬献上

Feeling a little chinese poetic suddenly... just anyhow type out what I am feeling now. It's bad poetry anyway...

Cheerios. Will talk about Benji tml.