Monday, June 30, 2008
Singfest
I wasn't tempted to go to Singfest initally, but after these few days I was damn tempted. It wasn't exactly my fault about this, and in the next few weeks some of u guys should understand (can't really say much right now, sorry). But I saw the line-up with Alicia Keys, Jason Mraz and Panic at the Disco, Rick Astley sticks out like a sore thumb! Remember him? He is the one who sang Together Forever and Never Gonna Give You Up... Here are the old videos to remember him by! Haha...
And I assure you that I confirm chop that you would have heard of at least one of the songs here somewhere...
Sorry for not putting the actual videos, but embedding for them are disabled. But u can click on those song links in the first paragraph and it should lead you to the youtube link!
Wah lao, damn retro sia. Damn funny lah! I have to keep laughing! And I know of these songs ok! Haha!
And I found a more recent performance of him (yup, he came back to sing in 2005) and a new remixed version didn't sound so bad! Haha!
Cheerios. Hope you guys enjoy the videos!
And I assure you that I confirm chop that you would have heard of at least one of the songs here somewhere...
Sorry for not putting the actual videos, but embedding for them are disabled. But u can click on those song links in the first paragraph and it should lead you to the youtube link!
Wah lao, damn retro sia. Damn funny lah! I have to keep laughing! And I know of these songs ok! Haha!
And I found a more recent performance of him (yup, he came back to sing in 2005) and a new remixed version didn't sound so bad! Haha!
Cheerios. Hope you guys enjoy the videos!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I feel like dying
The title said it all.
I just wanna die to numb all the pain and dry all the tears that I am feeling right now.
I felt useless, idiot, stupid.
How come when it matters, he doesn't understand?
Am I so wrong? Should I be even on this earth? Do I have any worth living on this earth?
I feel like going to die.
Or maybe I should just turn into stone...
But just a moment ago, my hei jie called. And even though it's only a few minutes of call, I feel so much better that someone actually bothered to call me back.
**Thanks Hei Jie**
Maybe it's just a big time case of mood swings...
**Don't mind me.... I should be fine by tomorrow....**
I just wanna die to numb all the pain and dry all the tears that I am feeling right now.
I felt useless, idiot, stupid.
How come when it matters, he doesn't understand?
Am I so wrong? Should I be even on this earth? Do I have any worth living on this earth?
I feel like going to die.
Or maybe I should just turn into stone...
But just a moment ago, my hei jie called. And even though it's only a few minutes of call, I feel so much better that someone actually bothered to call me back.
**Thanks Hei Jie**
Maybe it's just a big time case of mood swings...
**Don't mind me.... I should be fine by tomorrow....**
Friday, June 20, 2008
Choices
Why don't some people understand that a lot of choices are made because we don't have a choice?
I don't know why, but I always have a defensive streak whenever someone questions me about my choice. Some people just don't understand how lucky they are. Nv thought about money and never worry about their futures because either 1. their families are rich 2. their parents can always back them up whenever they meet with problems. I especially hate those people who said something like "why not? all my friends did that also what" kind of thing whenever u said something like "I can't do that".
How many of us do what we do out of no choice? How many people stay in their jobs that they hate because they need to work to earn money for their family? How many people stay in Singapore to study because they can't afford overseas universities? How many people choose a course of study they don't like because that course gives them the best prospects for job hunting? How many people hang on to their marriages because of their children? Or maybe, something closer to our hearts, how many of us can't go for oversea exchange just because they can't afford it?
Don't question why I did what I did ok. I am trying to be responsible. I am glad that I was born into a very happy family, whereby my parents dote me like crazy and take me as their 掌上明珠. I am happy because I can talk to my parents normally every night without feeling awkward. I can joke with them, complain and whine all I like to them without feeling a tiny bit of childish. And I love them very much. However, I have ageing parents and no siblings at all, which means in the future the whole family depends on me. I am forced to accept the fact that that I am probably going to be facing the prospects of being parentless 20 years down the road when my peers could have about 30 years. And that scares the hell out of us. Now, to see my parents still working now, it kills me to know that the reason for that was because of me.
And whenever my mum said, "It's all for you", it breaks my heart.
This is my heartfelt feelings. I hope people who knows me can feel it after reading it. I am even crying just by typing the previous paragraph.
I am not trying to prove anything or complain about my life. I am just saying that those people who don't have to think about that I thought about should consider lucky. I understand that everyone has different worries, but still, I consider people who don't have to worry about money are very lucky.
I think for all that I just said, Irene would have understand. We have the same problems and worries about our futures, how we are doing to deal with out "debts", the burden of the family etc even thought hers is slight different from mine.
**I am not trying to blaming you. I am trying to say that when you said "Why not, all my friends...." a certain level of insensitivity was shown and it actually hurts me...
After typing all that, I don't even know what is my conclusion for this entry. Maybe this entry is just an outlet for me to talk about my feelings... =(
Picture link here.
I don't know why, but I always have a defensive streak whenever someone questions me about my choice. Some people just don't understand how lucky they are. Nv thought about money and never worry about their futures because either 1. their families are rich 2. their parents can always back them up whenever they meet with problems. I especially hate those people who said something like "why not? all my friends did that also what" kind of thing whenever u said something like "I can't do that".
How many of us do what we do out of no choice? How many people stay in their jobs that they hate because they need to work to earn money for their family? How many people stay in Singapore to study because they can't afford overseas universities? How many people choose a course of study they don't like because that course gives them the best prospects for job hunting? How many people hang on to their marriages because of their children? Or maybe, something closer to our hearts, how many of us can't go for oversea exchange just because they can't afford it?
Don't question why I did what I did ok. I am trying to be responsible. I am glad that I was born into a very happy family, whereby my parents dote me like crazy and take me as their 掌上明珠. I am happy because I can talk to my parents normally every night without feeling awkward. I can joke with them, complain and whine all I like to them without feeling a tiny bit of childish. And I love them very much. However, I have ageing parents and no siblings at all, which means in the future the whole family depends on me. I am forced to accept the fact that that I am probably going to be facing the prospects of being parentless 20 years down the road when my peers could have about 30 years. And that scares the hell out of us. Now, to see my parents still working now, it kills me to know that the reason for that was because of me.
And whenever my mum said, "It's all for you", it breaks my heart.
This is my heartfelt feelings. I hope people who knows me can feel it after reading it. I am even crying just by typing the previous paragraph.
I am not trying to prove anything or complain about my life. I am just saying that those people who don't have to think about that I thought about should consider lucky. I understand that everyone has different worries, but still, I consider people who don't have to worry about money are very lucky.
I think for all that I just said, Irene would have understand. We have the same problems and worries about our futures, how we are doing to deal with out "debts", the burden of the family etc even thought hers is slight different from mine.
**I am not trying to blaming you. I am trying to say that when you said "Why not, all my friends...." a certain level of insensitivity was shown and it actually hurts me...
After typing all that, I don't even know what is my conclusion for this entry. Maybe this entry is just an outlet for me to talk about my feelings... =(
Picture link here.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I got a bite on my calf =(
I dunno what happened man, but I got an huge bite on my right calf! I got it since sun after running in a park, and it has since swelled up to a super big red spot that is itchy and painful at the same time... Went to a doctor just now only to find out that the bite has been infected and I need to take antibotics and all sorts of other medicine =( And it cost me $44!!! Plus, I have to buy additional dressing which ended up costing around $50 in the end..By the way, pardon the picture for my huge legs and calves. I am not a leggies girl... =( And actually the pictures did not do justice to my leg. It looks much worse in flesh. And btw, don't ask me what thing bite me. I don't know too... and I don't think it's mosquito right?
Sighz... so broke le and still something like that happened. That run was expensive =(
And now I have an ultra ugly calf. *sad*
**Btw, today 草蜢 is having a concert at Genting today... and I sadly can't go =( **
*Double Sad* =(
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Friday is a meeting day
Yesterday was quite a day...
Have a meeting from 9am to 11am about Card-Not-Present fraud. That meeting was simply too early and too taxing. There are many details plus it's too early in the morning! Somemore I seen almost all slides during fraud discussion with the product team. All of the interns almost fell asleep lah... but nonetheless I think it's useful.
Then there was a meeting with Asia Pacific Regional Director. That was keeping me on the toes the whole day because this meeting is like no joke. Lucky it's also with all the interns, so at least it's not so bad. Turns out that that was a very fruitful session. He was incredibly funny, cheerful and willing to share his experience and stories. He talked about himself, his daughter AND his daughter's boyfriend etc... and he said that since the girls are almost same age as his daughter, he kinda treat us like his daughter. Aw... so nice of him! He also try to make sure that we are having a fruitful time during our internship and wanted us to learn as much as we can here. He is really nice, and I really like him. To think that he is willing to talk to us interns (who I think is at the bottommost of the corporate leader, the way I see it.) and want to get to know us. Sure, it is beneficial for him and the company but he being a regional director... I never expect that he has no airs. Too bad I never brought a camera that day...
With that meeting in the afternoon, I practically have no time to do any work. Not that I mind because I don't have a lot of work anyway. But poor Tabby because she has a lot of work and she is going to have to do them all next week...
Watched Narnia yesterday. It was not too bad but I agreed with jul. It looks a little like LOTR. I remembered the first installment is more fantasy like so there is no comparison to be made but this time humans are involved so the comparison starts. Well, there are really incredibly funny parts of the show (KEEP SMILING!!) and I think the guy acting Prince Caspian is HOT! Haha.. And I thought that the kids in the show did grow up a little esp Lucy who is the youngest...
Oh well, nothing much to update actually. Just want to talk about stuff only. Back to soccer... Euro started about half hr ago!
Cheerios!
Have a meeting from 9am to 11am about Card-Not-Present fraud. That meeting was simply too early and too taxing. There are many details plus it's too early in the morning! Somemore I seen almost all slides during fraud discussion with the product team. All of the interns almost fell asleep lah... but nonetheless I think it's useful.
Then there was a meeting with Asia Pacific Regional Director. That was keeping me on the toes the whole day because this meeting is like no joke. Lucky it's also with all the interns, so at least it's not so bad. Turns out that that was a very fruitful session. He was incredibly funny, cheerful and willing to share his experience and stories. He talked about himself, his daughter AND his daughter's boyfriend etc... and he said that since the girls are almost same age as his daughter, he kinda treat us like his daughter. Aw... so nice of him! He also try to make sure that we are having a fruitful time during our internship and wanted us to learn as much as we can here. He is really nice, and I really like him. To think that he is willing to talk to us interns (who I think is at the bottommost of the corporate leader, the way I see it.) and want to get to know us. Sure, it is beneficial for him and the company but he being a regional director... I never expect that he has no airs. Too bad I never brought a camera that day...
With that meeting in the afternoon, I practically have no time to do any work. Not that I mind because I don't have a lot of work anyway. But poor Tabby because she has a lot of work and she is going to have to do them all next week...
Watched Narnia yesterday. It was not too bad but I agreed with jul. It looks a little like LOTR. I remembered the first installment is more fantasy like so there is no comparison to be made but this time humans are involved so the comparison starts. Well, there are really incredibly funny parts of the show (KEEP SMILING!!) and I think the guy acting Prince Caspian is HOT! Haha.. And I thought that the kids in the show did grow up a little esp Lucy who is the youngest...Oh well, nothing much to update actually. Just want to talk about stuff only. Back to soccer... Euro started about half hr ago!
Cheerios!
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
4 years ago
I love 2004 and 2008. And I think I shall love 2012 too. Because these are the years that many activities happen!!
4 years ago.... when I was 18 years old, in TJC Year 2....
1. I was supporting Greece to win Euro Cup. And they did.
2. I was supporting Michael Phelps for every single swimming event he's in. However, after the 200m freestyle final (which is dubbed the race of the century because there are 5 swimming superstars for 3 medals), I saw how Ian Thorpe pulled off a spectacular win and I was converted to Ian Thorpe's fan ever since.
3. I was supporting George Bush all the way for the US Presidential Elections during my A levels. And I remembered I found out that he won after my GP paper. If you want to know why I was supporting him, you can ask me =) I got things to talk about...
This year, in 2008,
1. I haven't have any team to support yet for the Euro. See how it goes. But I think my heart is leaning towards Portugal because of Cristiano Ronaldo... LOL
2. I am going to support Michael Phelps! Thorpe is out of the picture (damn it, I really wanted to see him compete again), and so I am a Phelpsian all the way! I supported Phelps as well for swimming also, just that between him and Thorpe, I would have chosen Thorpe =) I thought he was a spectacular swimmer 4 years ago when he was 19, and I still think he is a spectacular swimmer now. Who can forget the 6 golds and 2 bronzes that he won the last time??!! Plus, I think he is super cute with his toothsy smile and super se with his googles on!
3. I am going to be a Barack Obama supporter all the way.
I haven't been catching up on the US Presidential elections news, which is a shame since I am really interested in this. I know it sounds really weird, but I love US Presidential Elections. The news, the analysis, the promises the nominees made and the buzz that it creates. But it's ok. There is still time to catch up! Hilary Clinton just lost the nomination, but there will be more news along the way!
And in this olympics, I shall be watching SWIMMING, then DIVING. Yup, the water activities... and if there is still time, shall watch gymastics. Hope got time for me during school to watch all these... but first must watch how Australians and Americans fighting out at swimming!
And football!! More football!!
FYI, there is about 64 days to the start of olympics. And a FEW days towards Euro...
Hahhahahaha, I think the people reading my blog must be thinking that I am nuts that how come I can be interested in so many things at once... and I hope that for a small chance that people may be thinking that I am KNOWLEDABLE... hahahaha...
Anyway, I wanted to pose these videos. It's from the HK variety show 味分高下 which was ridiculously funny...
This is the one whereby one of the actors (read jul, he acts in Heart of Greed 溏心风暴 as one of the supporting actors) almost couldn't bite an apple after putting it into his mouth and ended up biting off the bottom end of the apple! Hilarious! Go towards the end if you want to straight away see it...
4 years ago.... when I was 18 years old, in TJC Year 2....
1. I was supporting Greece to win Euro Cup. And they did.
2. I was supporting Michael Phelps for every single swimming event he's in. However, after the 200m freestyle final (which is dubbed the race of the century because there are 5 swimming superstars for 3 medals), I saw how Ian Thorpe pulled off a spectacular win and I was converted to Ian Thorpe's fan ever since.
3. I was supporting George Bush all the way for the US Presidential Elections during my A levels. And I remembered I found out that he won after my GP paper. If you want to know why I was supporting him, you can ask me =) I got things to talk about...
This year, in 2008,
1. I haven't have any team to support yet for the Euro. See how it goes. But I think my heart is leaning towards Portugal because of Cristiano Ronaldo... LOL
2. I am going to support Michael Phelps! Thorpe is out of the picture (damn it, I really wanted to see him compete again), and so I am a Phelpsian all the way! I supported Phelps as well for swimming also, just that between him and Thorpe, I would have chosen Thorpe =) I thought he was a spectacular swimmer 4 years ago when he was 19, and I still think he is a spectacular swimmer now. Who can forget the 6 golds and 2 bronzes that he won the last time??!! Plus, I think he is super cute with his toothsy smile and super se with his googles on!
3. I am going to be a Barack Obama supporter all the way.
I haven't been catching up on the US Presidential elections news, which is a shame since I am really interested in this. I know it sounds really weird, but I love US Presidential Elections. The news, the analysis, the promises the nominees made and the buzz that it creates. But it's ok. There is still time to catch up! Hilary Clinton just lost the nomination, but there will be more news along the way!
And in this olympics, I shall be watching SWIMMING, then DIVING. Yup, the water activities... and if there is still time, shall watch gymastics. Hope got time for me during school to watch all these... but first must watch how Australians and Americans fighting out at swimming!
And football!! More football!!
FYI, there is about 64 days to the start of olympics. And a FEW days towards Euro...
Hahhahahaha, I think the people reading my blog must be thinking that I am nuts that how come I can be interested in so many things at once... and I hope that for a small chance that people may be thinking that I am KNOWLEDABLE... hahahaha...
Anyway, I wanted to pose these videos. It's from the HK variety show 味分高下 which was ridiculously funny...
This is the one whereby one of the actors (read jul, he acts in Heart of Greed 溏心风暴 as one of the supporting actors) almost couldn't bite an apple after putting it into his mouth and ended up biting off the bottom end of the apple! Hilarious! Go towards the end if you want to straight away see it...
Cheerios! Bedtime!
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Updates
There are quite a bit of updates to talk about...
Workwise, it has been okay. Sometimes super busy (I have been doing CAGR numbers for dunno how many days le...) sometimes super slack to the point of dunno what to do. Went to a meeting about card frauds, which makes me feel like I learnt so much more in that 1 hour that I wanna go to more meetings... haha.. and the money for this internship is good. Haha...
People on this internship, on the other hand, are not so good. Tabby (haha, if she ever reads this blog and saw me putting her name as this, I think she may kill me...) and I practically stick to each other for 3 weeks. The other interns (mostly SMUs), are like -_-'''' I really dunno what to say about them. How come they weren't like the SMUs interns in IE? Is it because they are mostly Year 2s? At one point, I wanted to rebuke them and say stop being so atas lah. Come on, we all are in Singapore universities, we all are on equal footing. No one is better than anyone. There is no need to prove anything. It is not as if it's Harvard... there is nothing to be atas about. The more u do it, the more I feel that u are being insecure.... and the whole thing about proving to us is ridiculous! I was offered a place at SMU too, so it isn't like only the most elite can enter that university!
Alright. Today met up with Huiteng (late again, but all huiteng's fault) to do some shopping... brought her to lucky plaza to see where all the cheap skincares and perfumes are. She ended up buying more than me I think... haha! And I got another free sample from Clarins... haha. Decided that I shall like Clarins because their products are made from plants and it's natural and it's not very expensive too. Perhaps in the future when I am rich I shall buy more of their products... And it's nice to meet up with Huiteng and do some shopping...
And something nice happened on friday....
I FINALLY BROKE MY DUCK OF NOT GETTING As IN NUS!
I got 2As, 1B- and 1C+... 2As! Damn the C+ lah. If that had been another B-, it would really make my day. But I am always late for that class, so maybe that's why =( Very surprised by my IA though. Thought that if I get C I am very lucky but turned out to be a B-. Nothing to complain about. This also means that I am not as bad as I think... or everyone else is as bad as me =) haha. But thinking back, I worked damn hard for my 2As. Studied like nuts for global. I researched a lot on market research and the stats stuff and did all the hw assignments with my own effort. Not to mention I put in a lot of effort in the project. And I did well for the tests without anyone helping me (ie I never asked anyone to explain much of any stuff not like IA when I kept asking Weiquan to explain to me about concepts) Was totally prepared to s/u these subjects when I decided to take them at the beginning of the sem when they turned out to be the best in the end... how come I am always like that arh? Everytime I did the best for those subjects that I can s/u... irritating. But this time I got 2As, I am happy.
Waited for 2.5 years for As... at least 3 times I think I came awfully close to getting at least A-.... now give me 2 at one go. I am always a late surger in sec and jc (did badly all the time during sch before doing well for the impt exams). I am happy. Nothing to complain.
And was reading gerline's blog. Seems like quite a bit of people did well for this sem...
I shall make the last dash next sem! Hopefully another As!
Anyway, some of u guys told me u have been receiving offline msn links from me.... grrr... I dunno what the hell happened. This is the 3rd time of the mth and I only went to those websites that I always go to such as hotmail, my blog and tudou. Rah... shall think of what to do first. Meanwhile, dun click on those links ok?
The bottom is for jul.... in case she cannot take it that she can't watch 溏心风暴 on tudou yet.. picked out the nice parts of Raymond Lam =)
The part whereby he confess his love...
During their love...
And the last scene of Raymond Lam... if u dun wan to know what happened dun watch!
There u go!
Cheerios, wanna watch my shows =)
Workwise, it has been okay. Sometimes super busy (I have been doing CAGR numbers for dunno how many days le...) sometimes super slack to the point of dunno what to do. Went to a meeting about card frauds, which makes me feel like I learnt so much more in that 1 hour that I wanna go to more meetings... haha.. and the money for this internship is good. Haha...
People on this internship, on the other hand, are not so good. Tabby (haha, if she ever reads this blog and saw me putting her name as this, I think she may kill me...) and I practically stick to each other for 3 weeks. The other interns (mostly SMUs), are like -_-'''' I really dunno what to say about them. How come they weren't like the SMUs interns in IE? Is it because they are mostly Year 2s? At one point, I wanted to rebuke them and say stop being so atas lah. Come on, we all are in Singapore universities, we all are on equal footing. No one is better than anyone. There is no need to prove anything. It is not as if it's Harvard... there is nothing to be atas about. The more u do it, the more I feel that u are being insecure.... and the whole thing about proving to us is ridiculous! I was offered a place at SMU too, so it isn't like only the most elite can enter that university!
Alright. Today met up with Huiteng (late again, but all huiteng's fault) to do some shopping... brought her to lucky plaza to see where all the cheap skincares and perfumes are. She ended up buying more than me I think... haha! And I got another free sample from Clarins... haha. Decided that I shall like Clarins because their products are made from plants and it's natural and it's not very expensive too. Perhaps in the future when I am rich I shall buy more of their products... And it's nice to meet up with Huiteng and do some shopping...
And something nice happened on friday....
I FINALLY BROKE MY DUCK OF NOT GETTING As IN NUS!
I got 2As, 1B- and 1C+... 2As! Damn the C+ lah. If that had been another B-, it would really make my day. But I am always late for that class, so maybe that's why =( Very surprised by my IA though. Thought that if I get C I am very lucky but turned out to be a B-. Nothing to complain about. This also means that I am not as bad as I think... or everyone else is as bad as me =) haha. But thinking back, I worked damn hard for my 2As. Studied like nuts for global. I researched a lot on market research and the stats stuff and did all the hw assignments with my own effort. Not to mention I put in a lot of effort in the project. And I did well for the tests without anyone helping me (ie I never asked anyone to explain much of any stuff not like IA when I kept asking Weiquan to explain to me about concepts) Was totally prepared to s/u these subjects when I decided to take them at the beginning of the sem when they turned out to be the best in the end... how come I am always like that arh? Everytime I did the best for those subjects that I can s/u... irritating. But this time I got 2As, I am happy.
Waited for 2.5 years for As... at least 3 times I think I came awfully close to getting at least A-.... now give me 2 at one go. I am always a late surger in sec and jc (did badly all the time during sch before doing well for the impt exams). I am happy. Nothing to complain.
And was reading gerline's blog. Seems like quite a bit of people did well for this sem...
I shall make the last dash next sem! Hopefully another As!
Anyway, some of u guys told me u have been receiving offline msn links from me.... grrr... I dunno what the hell happened. This is the 3rd time of the mth and I only went to those websites that I always go to such as hotmail, my blog and tudou. Rah... shall think of what to do first. Meanwhile, dun click on those links ok?
The bottom is for jul.... in case she cannot take it that she can't watch 溏心风暴 on tudou yet.. picked out the nice parts of Raymond Lam =)
The part whereby he confess his love...
During their love...
And the last scene of Raymond Lam... if u dun wan to know what happened dun watch!
There u go!
Cheerios, wanna watch my shows =)
