2 down, 3 more to go.

Macro Econs paper next, then comes Genes and Society, then lastly Operations Management.

All sucks big time. Esp econs. So lost after a whole sem. I understand genes more than econs (at least some parts of the mechanism like DNA replication and protein translation...) and I don't have any Biology background at all... how ironic.

How can 2 years of JC econs be un-learn so quickly in a sem?

And Managerial Accounting module sucks. AND finance is a gone case. It's like the scenario Yuxin had with her open book exam. Notes, TB and formula sheets all sprawled all over the floor. Somemore this paper got the 'lottery sheet' that u need to shade for MCQ... I almost lost that piece of paper cos it's buried under the notes. And I had to constantly switch from using normal calculator to the finance calculator... And with all that things I am left with 1/4 of the table to use. Very fun.

It's not the first time I have an open book exam, but it's the first time I have so many things on my table. And it's no use that it's an open book exam because the questions are damn freaking difficult!!

5 dec... when are u going to be here??

Freedom then. For now... agony.

Back to econs and the freaking graphs. Back to imports and exports and external/internal equilibrium....

Signing out.

Yes, it's my mummy's birthday and I plain forgot about it!!! It's only when I saw the large birthday cake she bought for herself in the fridge then I remembered....

I'm such a horrible daughter to forget about it!! Must have studied till I went sot already and forget all about dates except mon when my first paper starts...

But lucky I bought her a new eyeshadow palette and gave it to her right before I was imprisoned at home for mugging.

I haven't been out of the house since last sat and only went out to buy stationary yesterday. That's about 6 days at home!! All day long mug mug mug... and I am super slow in studying in the day for some reason (part of the reason is because of Thorpe la) , and that is why I end up doing all the mugging in the middle of the night.

My latest record?? 6.30am in the morning. And surprising, I feel that I can go on till 7am except that my mum is screaming for me to sleep.

I think if I have to fly to the other half of the world right now, I would not have a problem with time differences because my biological clock runs the timing there!! Shit!! I have to adjust my clock back in 2 days time or else u can see me dozing off in the middle of a paper, which is obviously NO GOOD!!

It has been 3 days of 6.30am already, and tonight, I promised I'll sleep at 12am-1am. No later than that!!

Anyway, I cut off the newspapers clippings with Thorpe's retirement and put it along with other news clipping I have about him. And I realised that I have quite a bit of him actually, all back in the Olympics 2004 days. There is a piece about him and Michael Phelps, who is the swimmer I will support now without Thorpe, him in 100m freestyle, and another piece of him when he was in town last year for IOC meeting. I will probably post it soon here.

And I kept a piece of him in my file so that I can look at him whenever I want. =)

And I realised that Yuxin's genes notes has his picture inside!!! Surprise Surprise!! It was among the section of growth hormones... and I am so happy!!! LOL... Thanks Yuxin!!!

Ok!!! Say I am too crazy over him. But let me be for this period of time, for when it's over, it ill be over.

And lastly, I read a piece of news online that he is planning to launch a tv career. Shit, I knew it. Once he retired, I know I will probably never see him on my tv again because he will be only appearing on Aussies' tv. I feel like telling Ian that "Why go TV?? TV not good. Come back to swimming!!" but I know that it's no use.

I am still coming to terms with his retirement, and right now I am more accepting to it than a few days before. Thanks to my friends who kept trying to console me!! Esp Zoe and Jul!! They are the ones who seems to really know how I feel...

Ok, better go and mug if I want to sleep at 12am tonight. Signing out.

Picture of birthday cake from http://www.gapingvoid.com/
Picture of Ian Thorpe from a yahoo group.

Oh well, I am coming terms with Ian Thorpe's retirement. It has affected my mugging, which is expected, but it's better now.

Thanks to all my friends who tried to console me!! Yes, u may think it's funny that I need consoling for something like that. But if u think that way, u dont know how much I love this guy. So yeah, don't tell me it's stupid that I am so upset over this.

I just realised that it's not a gd year for the sporting world. Zinedine Zidane, Andre Agassi and Michael Schmacher all retired this year, with Ian Thorpe joining the list...

I can't imagine 2008 Olympics 400m freestyle race... Ian Thorpe had never lost that race in 7 years (I think it's roughly there). And he is still the current world record holder for 200m and 400m freestyle.

It's going to be strange to watch that.

Anyway, I found the videos of him telling the world that he is retiring. Enjoy...

Argh, my favourite swimmer IAN THORPE retired from swimming at age 24!!! Argh Argh!!! Who quits swimming at 24??

Read the news here.

I kinda expect something like this to happen, but I did not expect so soon. I wish he had continued swimming, at least till Beijing but apparently he did not want to. Wish him all the best then.

Ok I lied!!! I am so upset!!! I really wished he hadn't quit competitive swimming!!! Because he is absolutely awesome!!

Don't believe me? Check this out:

Gold - 2000 Olympics Sydney
400 m freestyle
4x100 m freestyle relay
4x200 m freestyle relay
2004 Athens
200 m freestyle
400 m freestyle
Silver - 2000 Sydney
200 m freestyle
4x100 m medley relay
2004 Athens
4x200 m freestyle relay
Bronze - 2004 Athens
100 m freestyle

Picture link here Just olympic achievements only... and already it's crazy. I'm not going to state his other achievements because it's going to flood this entry...

Ian, why u have to retire???

So if I am not wrong, this is the last gold medal race he competed in... in 2004 Athens 200m Freestyle. Its dubbed as the "Race of the Century" because there is Pieter Van Hoogdenband, Michael Phelps, Roland Schoeman and of course Ian thorpe. All potential gold medalists. That race was absolutely break-necking. Watch how his size 17 feet paddles through water.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMjaGMvL9DQ

Picture link here This is how he reacted when he found out that he won that 200m free race. In his trademark black bodysuit. Sheer joy...Boy I cannot forget this race...

I still want to marry him if he is not gay. LOL...

So now since he is technically jobless right now, can he come over to Singapore to teach me swimming? Cos I still freaking don't know how to swim!!!

Shit la. I can't stop talking about him now. I better end here. Talk more about him next time.

No mood to study already. I told Linda this, and I will say it now. Next time these people should follow a kind of calendar that suits me. DON'T DROP SUCH A BOMB ON ME JUST BEFORE MY EXAMS!!!

This week sucks.

Signing out.

P.S. I guess the only good thing about him retiring is that I no longer need to earn money so badly to go to Beijing in 2 yrs time for the Olympics. But I much rather be earning my butt off for that than to see him retire... =( *sad*

"Some students have complained that many questions in the two tests were the same as those in the past years' questions."

That was from my Operations Management lecturer, who posted this in the annoucement. I am not putting the whole thing here to spare myself from unnecesary trouble. But anyhow, this is stupid. I can't believe there are students that actually complained about this. If there are many questions from past yrs papers but u didn't know about it, then you should blame urself for being stupid enough for not getting it. And blame urself for not being hardworking enough to get it. It should not be blamed on the lecturers who set it again (unless the questions are outdated, which I don't think so in this case) or the students who managed to get it. Stop pushing the fault on somebody else and when actually it's ur own stupidity on ur part.

Yes, I did manage to get the papers, thanks to ah boon. But I did not get any past yr papers for MA where almost everyone of my frens had them. Imagine how I felt when I heard so many people from left, right and centre saying that they got A or A+ for the test because they studied the papers when I studied my butt off till late at night and still did not get such gd grades. But I am not blaming other people or the lecturers for setting past questions. Rather, I am kicking myself in the butt for not thinking of getting it.

So there, sore losers. Start blaming yourself instead of other people.

And I hate it when people just start comparing answers so intensively right in front of u when they themselves knew that they did very well. I know it's hard to control this habit because I lapsed into this routine from time to time, but I am trying to stop. What I hate it that the person just don't stop doing it when u dropped hints so much so that they could not be more blunt.

Next time, listen. I am trying to take this advice for myself too.

Signing out.

I am so not in the study mood. I am screwed!! Keep watching stupid videos!!!

And I found so many goo goo dolls videos but I dun dare to put here...

But this video I have to put...

RAIN!!! On the MTV show TRL in New York!!! He's absolutely amazing... His dancing and his charm...

And this video is great for me because I finally can hear Rain saying something I can understand...

I can't resist charming men la. Look at how in love I am with John Rzeznik, undisputed charming man.

Enjoy the video!!

Video Link

Everyone is mugging!!! Argh. I wish I have mugged sooner because all the mugging around me is panicking me!! I can't wait for 5 dec because that is when my nightmare is all over!!

Then when hols come, I shall resist my spending urge because next yr I am going broke!!! All my frens are turning 21 next yr!!

But there is just so much things on my "To-Do List" and "To-Buy List"!!! I need a sponsor!!

This sem passed super fast to me. One minute it was the beginning of the sem, the start of year 2 (no more being called freshies. It started to sound like we are veggies), and the beginning of student's like after "promoting" to working class for about 2 mths. Then the next thing u know it's reading week and exams are starting.... I guess 1.5 yrs later when I am about to graduate I will say the same thing...

But I still don't know what I should major in!!! *headache* But I guess I should worry about crosing the first hurdle first, which is exams.

I feel like posting another video, but I shall resist the urge or else my page is going to take a hell lot of time to load.

Oh yeah addie, I bought ur present alr. Don't go out and buy it on ur own ok!!

And yeah, I watched 22 movies alr. Not 21. Forgot to count Pirates of the Carribbean: Dead Men's Chest as said by Jul.

Ok, back to econs. My head is already bursting with all the growth formulas. I don't understand how growth of economy works!!! Help!!

I just hope that I can resist the urge of going to youtube and watch charmed.... I had finished re-watching all episodes of charmed's season 1... Hopeless!!!

I'll end off with 2 quotes:

"It's OK to sing and yell and scream, and do all those things that stroke my ego" John Rzeznik of The Goo Goo Dolls, on a recent concert on Nov 11

"It's supernatural freaky friday!" Phoebe Halliwell, played by Alyssa Milano, on Charmed Season 1's Love Hurts.

Cheerios. Signing out.

*Just a note* The more I think of it, the more I want it to happen. I feel like heaven is playing a huge joke on me... why isn't it happening?

I know that my blog had been hard to load recently, due to my overwhelming obsession to videos on youtube. I am resisting the urge to post more videos now, at least for a while. Believe me, I have so much more to post...

I listened to GGD's songs, and I kept reflecting on everything. Esp on the train. Their songs had always got me thinking, and that is part of the reason why I like them so much. I feel like I am a very evil and bad person in the past 1 mth because of all the work and stress I had been feeling. Here are the bad deeds:

I have been brutally honest, and these few days with all the stress I had been feeling, I am worse.

I have not been thinking about others' feelings, not as much as I wanted to. Esp the past 1 mth.

I have been insensitive.

I have been snapping at my mum and dad the past 1 mth, and had not been appreciative to what they had done for me.

I have been scolding inwardly at everyone who disrupts my plans.

I had blown my top on the 2nd last day of tuition to my kid, and he was so scared of me for the rest of that session that he didn't even dare to make a sound unless I asked him to talk.

I had been stuborn, and wanted things my way.

So much so that when I listened to the song Sympathy, I wondered why am I chasing all the material things in life when I had not been good to everyone. In short, I had turned evil in the past 1 mth.

And I had to apologise to everyone who is reading my blog right now. If I had been shady to u the past mth, sorry because it's been stressful.

Thanks to GGD for making me realise how awful I was the past mth.

Now moving on to another matter.

I felt like I had not fitted anywhere, and someone is taking everything from me. I wish that *it ( I am trying to protect the person's identity here) won't do this to me. Everytime I am getting close, *it comes in. It's a connection I'm feeling, we're feeling, and there's no need to take that away from us.

And I wish that for once, when I poured out my heart to u, u won't use that against me in every little way.

I hope I am wrong about all these, but I turned out to be usually right.

I am a slight empath??

Ok, moving on to a lighter topic. Movies!!! Time to compute a movie listing now before I turned on my mugger mode. Yes, that mode hasn't been turned on yet. But it'll be soon!!!

But I have given up my thinking of honours. What was I thinking? I am not that smart anyway....how to go honours? My cap sucks so badly...

Honours is perhaps way too out of line for me. Better just concentrate of getting okay caps for now...

Anyway, here is the movie listing...

1. Elizabethtown
2. Memoirs of a Geisha
3. Matchpoint
4. Casanova
5. Final Destination 3
6. Munich
7. V for Vendetta
8. Russian Dolls
9. Mission Impossible 3
10. When a Stranger Calls
11. The Da Vinci Code
12. X-men 3 - The Last Stand
13. Over the Hedge
14. Cars
15. Lake House
16. Superman Returns
17. The Break Up
18. The Devil Wears Prada
19. The Departed
20. The Prestige
21. The Covenant

So now it's 21 movies and counting...lol. Juliana, did I miss out anything??

If u guys are free, which is unlikely, watch The Prestige. Very Very good show.

If u need beefy guys, go watch The Covenant. LOL..

Ok signning off now. Better start mugging.

Oh!! Have to do MA presentation. Can't mug yet...sad...=(

I just fell in love with John Legend even more. Yes, the genius talented singer behind the song "Ordinary People". Me and Nicole are just so in love with that song. Anyway, just watch TRL in mtvasia and he was there promoting his new album. And the VJs there put him into a test. They wanted him to play a segment of a song on their top 10 countdown on a piano by just listening to it for a while, since he is named as the piano genius.

And they played My Chemical Romance's Welcome to the Black Parade, Jay-z's Show Me What You Got and Justin Timberlake's My Love. A rock, rap and rnb number. Whoa. Not easy.

And John Legend played them all on the piano!!! Even the Jay-z song, which is the toughest one out of the lot in my opinon.

Whoa. I am falling in love with him again.

I can't find the video anywhere on YouTube, but will post it soon when I find it.

And they showcased his new song Save Room, which I instantly love it.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMPjydwpMO4

Ah...nothing better than a good soul rnb song.

And guess what I found? I actually found the video of him singing with Mariah Carey with the song "Born Again". I saw this on tv a few months ago and this performance is awesome!

This might be a long post.

To You*:
I wish that You* can see my world and realise that the world isn't all as it is. I wish that You* are willing to try and step out of ur comfy and c****a world and try mine for 1 day. You* will know and learn much more.

To You**:
I wish I could tell You** how I feel. But I can't. I am trying to spare u some humility and face... So don't push it. Or else I may lose my self-constrain.

Alright. I am done with complaining. Those ppl who had fallen asleep can wake up now.

Was watching Focus on ch8 last night and they were talking about how non-chinese people are learning chinese in Sg...and they actually interviewed the famous chinese old singer Fei Xiang. What he said was truly amazing. He amazes me!! He is truly what an Amercian Chinese should be... someone who knows exactly what chinese values should be retained and what amercian values that chinese ppl should perhaps learn. I may not agree totally with what he thinks about marriage and relationships, but I respect him. A lot of reporters and DJs were praising him when he was in SG the last time and I scoffed. Finally, I understand why they praised him. He is truly an amazing guy.

I feel that I really learnt a lot from him.

Alright. Now for some light-hearted stuff. I am feeling more nostalgic lately. Been to YouTube almost every time I am online just to check out videos and found some nice old songs video. Itchy to post them man. LOL.

This first video is from soulDecision's Faded...Release in 2000 I think... Happened to hear it on the radio 2 days ago den suddenly feel like checking the video and then found out that the lead singer damn handsome!!! I like his voice too.... sultry. LOL... Hahahahaha...I can't resist handsome men esp ang mohs so yeah. The tune of the song rocks man. I love it. Lyrics click here

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4urS2uPdM-Q

Another song is a new song. Heard it on trl mtvasia channel. It's a little bubblegum pop, but the song keeps playing in my head and I have to post it. LOL...It's by a girl called Vanessa Hudgens - Come Back to Me. Lyrics click here.

Finally!!! I am less busy with stuff...no more tests but I think I still have 1 more finance quiz to deal with. But at least better than last time when everything just keeps coming...

Thanks to Ah Boon's past yr papers, my OM test wasn't so bad....and also thanks to him our econs presentation wasn't screwed up. Poor thing, he had to do till 4am on the day of our presentation in order to make it work...feel so bad for him...

I still got much to do. I haven't been doing tutorials because of all the other projects and essays and tests so I am so behind!! I HATE being behind...

These few days I have been to YouTube non-stop to watch my beloved Goo Goo Dolls to de-stress. I am so burned out the last few days. Been drinking coffee for the past 1.5 weeks, even on the wkends, trying to keep myself awake enough to do all my work. Have memory worse than ever. Forgets every single little thing. Adeline was telling me to take a day's break when I am less busy. I guess I freaked her out slightly when I kept complaining to her and telling her that I cannot give her her birthday present yet because I simply have no time to shop for her...

I am sorry girl!! I promise I will get ur present soon. =)

Since I have been watching GGD videos non-stop, I found a couple of really good and funny videos.

Ok, more than a couple. I promise I will try to control myself.

Ok, first one's coming up. The whole interview was hilarous... The audio quality isn't fantastic, but bearable. Check him out at 00.35 sec.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xpx5qeq_vwc

"Rockstar Hair... " "Is this all I get?..." Oh boy, johnny is hilarous!!! AND I love his hair!!!

Second video. Goo Goo Dolls' Black Balloon from their most successful album Dizzy Up the Girl.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5s_HnnHsw0

Very nice video....it's about how u see someone u love so much screwed up her life(it's her because the lyrics mentioned "boys could never reach u") so badly. It's about heroin addiction. It's rumoured that it's about Robby's ex. (Robby is the band's bassist)

Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And i go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies that they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room

And theres no time left for losin
'When you stand they fall

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you grow colder
All because I'm
Comin' down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on to bring you home
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me

Beautiful song..with beautiful lyrics...It makes u ponder about life. Or at least it makes me ponder about my life.

Hmm.

Will post other videos....lol. Found a couple really nice mtvs.

Better go to bed now. Cheerios.