Yeah! My aunt and cousin are coming in the afternoon on mon tml! Actually technically is today because it's already past midnight... Going to have some photos galore later!

Anyway, I was reading Zoe's blog and her latest entry about online shopping, and somehow I remembered something which bothers me. This thought of mine is totally unrelated to her entry actually, so I am not sure how come it came to me. Anyway, some time ago, I remembered I was really hurt by a friend's remarks. I told this friend of mine (let's just call the person B) a secret/ issue out of confidence, and a couple of months later, when we have some disagreements, B threw this secret back at me, meaning to hurt me in the process.

I am generally okay with jokes, even those that make use of my "flaws". Eg, "Everyone listens to you because u are noisy, not because you are popular" that kind of thing.... You can tease me about it and I am fine. But when a comment is used to hurt me, I am NOT OKAY. Generally I am happy to say that I always try to give the person the benefit of doubt on whether the person is trying to hurt me or not, but in some situations, you always know.

So imagine how shocked I am when B threw that comment and secret to me. In any sense, if one unintentionally hurt you without knowing, the person is at fault, but not entirely. But in "other sense", when a person delibrately does so to hurt u, the person is really to blame.

So what lessons did I learn from this?

I learnt to shut up a long time ago. I learnt that to open my eyes wide to see how the person is and make sure that I totally trust the person before letting him/ her know my secrets. I realised that I used to trust a person way too early and learnt my lesson the hard way. Usually, for now, there are only a couple of people who knows my deepest issues. But still, I kept my deepest, darkest secrets way inside my heart...

And probably, the only people I can trust in the whole world without fear are my parents.

And yes, I have trust issues still. But better safe than sorry. I never want to experience that kind of feeling again....

**Fun fact: My stars alignment for lunar new year 2009 warned me not to trust too many people this year.... so my trust issues are not exactly way off...

Just some random stuff now. I went for a facial on sat and my beautician commented that I have "小姐" hands!!!! Rah... this is the second time I got this comments in 2 months! Told me that I have very nice hands that shows that I don't do much housework... Doesn't sound very positive leh. She also said that I have nice eyelashes (everytime I get that comment. And she meant that I got a nice proportion length. Eg, the middle is a lot longer than the sides of my eye...) and very fair skin. I am starting to feel that I am really fairer than others. I got that comment way too many times to ignore it. To think I used to think that I am just as dark as others... And she liked my hair! So far those people who saw me with my new hairstyle like it... I am going to see how my aunt thinks about it when she arrived =)

Anyway, these few days I am inspired by some words whenever I surfed the net. "Have faith in the process" and "Rejections are just part of a journey" are some examples to name a few... but I am incredibly happy that I got the support that I needed.

The video below is from Danny K, who said "Have faith in the process"...




And my house Buddha very poor thing... I asked her questions way too many times these past few weeks...

And I am still considering my mum's crazy idea.... should I go and try it out?

Cheerios.