Friday, January 09, 2009
Lessons in Life (Edited)
I guess in some sense, I learnt a lot for this one week.
I realised that decisions are always hard to make, and u need family and friends sometimes to help you.
I realised how important family is. I mean, I always know that, but I only know how much and to what extent this week.
And somehow I pity those people who complained about their family. Those people who complained about their parents all the time, who never talk nicely to them, who thinks that they are annoying. I know I did that in teenage years (who doesn't?), but now I make an effort to be nice to them no matter what.
Parents don't live forever. I learnt this the hard way, when I have a scare that I could have almost lost my mother when I was 14, when I know that my dad's age is close to retirement, and when today I realised that I am shaking when I typed this. Cherishing them is important, and love them is just as much.
I am glad (and count my lucky stars) that I have a great family life, when my mum is my friend, when my dad is my protector. I am glad that my family is full of love, whereby I want to support the family not just because I have to, but because I want to. I am glad that I want to give my parents a good life because I want them to with all my heart, and not because I have to.
Career, relationships, and all the other materialistic things can never compare to family life. I am a lucky girl. And I made myself a pact that family will always come first. U can always rebuild a career in a couple of years, but it takes a lot of time to rebuild a family.
People, if u have been unkind to ur parents, I guess now is the time to change. I guess u don't want to regret it for the rest of ur life... And if in some sense, I said something here that may offends u, please understand that I did not mean to. It's pure coincidence.
And I heard a saying that anyone who is fillal to their parents can never be a bad partner. And how ur kids treat u will be how u treat ur parents. So I guess, this means that being fillal is important....
I personally feel that family keeps one humble. It is family that keeps one grounded and humble, that always allows u to be who u really are. And I guess humilty is important too. I now understand that there is no need to think that others are jealous of u or u are better than others (or some other things that doesn't sound so humble) because they can be having something that u do not have. I said a year ago that God is fair and I believed so. He made us all equal so that one can never be 'better' than the others. If u are pretty, that means u are probably not a genius. If u are pretty and a genius, that means u are probably not popular. I noticed this in Hollywood since most of the stars have turbulent lives (or used to) or less than perfect lives. So what I am trying to say is, family will make one not spiteful, because one cannot be spiteful if they can never be jealous of anyone.
And I also realised how important friends are. They are with u no matter what decisions u made, no matter how much u chewed their ears off, no matter how much trouble. I am glad that friends have supported me and gave me confidence when I needed them. And so if these few days I have been chewing ur eyes and ears off, thanks! I deeply appreciate it.
Anyway, have been thinking about my career for many days these days and my mum came up with a totally crazy career path, which after serious thought, doesn't sound so crazy after a while. But if I seriously want to do this, I will have to really start from scratch, and definitely a hard (and many door slamming) path ahead. Hmm, maybe I should take the plunge, but the stakes are super duper high....
In a random note, sometimes I do look back to 2008 and just realised that I 'shed' a lot of blood in 2008, literally and figuratively. I shed a lot of blood in my school work (and help a few others along the way) and am totally proud of my work. Esp for marketing research mod whereby I know the main difference for my grades comes from my efforts (all my efforts) and know that I still got it in me. Also, from the literal view, I got a bite on my calf (which hasn't fully recovered, still got a mark) and extracted 2 wisdom teeth (which is one of the most painful things I have done).
And just as well, I wished I haven't turned so vain in 2008. Yup yup I am admitting that I am vain! The reason for that wish because I think that is one of the reasons my results went into a downward spiral before picking itself up again..... when it's a little too late... (but I got a little consolation of the thing I wanted before I left uni though it's still a little too late....)
Ah..... rattling now...
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For some light hearted things now. Meet up with my Da Jie again this week, and she treated me to a nail spa and pedicure! She is always giving me stuff so I guess next time I got a lot to repay her! And her bf actually, who has given me some advice. So now I got nice pedi now that I dunno whether I bear to take off in 2 wks time. And no ugly heels! At least most of my dead skin cells are gone... thanks da jie! For all the materialistic (and vain but pretty) things and also the deep thought conversations and the laughter we have.... I am glad that one MRT trip from school back home will allow me to make a friend that feels so much like a big sister that I never have =)
Above is the ice cream that we ate at swensens... No pictures of us this time, because one of us never put make up, one of us reckons that she is too ugly for pictures that day =)
Just finished watching The O.C. season 4. It's a great season (so much better than season 2 and 3), and it's such a pity that it ended its run. I remembered I was so looking forward to the show in 2003 season 1 that I never fail to catch it every week. And I absolutely loooovvvvveee the ending. It's like one of the best endings of shows that I have ever seen. Shall try to find the ending and post it up here, because currently I think youtube got problem. And if u ever watched O.C. for season 1 u will know how touching the ending is =)
So now, resume watching Gossip Girl! Season 2 return after a mid season hiatus! And I finished ep14! New fave drama!
"Welcome Upper East Siders, Gossip Girl here. Your one and only source to the scandalous lives of the Manhattan's Elite..." ........... "You know you love me. XOXO Gossip Girl"
Yeah yeah, I watched so much that I know the lines of the beginning of the show and the ending so well....
Ok, so I guess that's it. Till the next time.
Cheerios...
**Need to learn to let go...
