It's just irritating and sad with the people I was surrounded with at times.

I know, I am not exactly the perfect person in the world as well. But it's just that I can't help feeling unhappy with things that happens around me. And I can't help but to bitch about it since I can't exactly tell the people how I feel. Can anyone understand that?

After I bitched about it here, I will then start feeling guilty and upset about what I had bitched, what I had said that can't be taken back, how I feel without considering others' feelings.

So yeah, u are asking, why then I started bitching about it in the first place?

BECAUSE I CAN'T HELP IT.

It makes me feel a teeny tiny bit of happiness and relief before the guilty and unhappiness sets in... and I like that feeling. It's better than feeling frustrated and cooped up with all the feelings inside all day long.

Here goes.

Ok, it's just upsetting to see how defensive people can get.

I mean, if u are right all the time, fine. But u are not. No one is! There are times whereby u are so wrong and u can't even stand people telling u that u are wrong. So what do u expect me to do? I go around the big damn bush trying to spare ur feelings to HINT that u MAY be slightly wrong, but ended up kena shoot by u again. It's really 好心没好报...

Have u guys seen defensive people? Like REALLY DEFENSIVE? It is like they want to protect their precious little heart from getting hurt and so they bite others and hurt them. It's awful! U hear them always confronting people left right and centre just because they feel that they are being hurt left right and centre...

And poor me are those that kena get hurt, because I rather spare the person's feelings than to retort back =(

It's no wonder that these people cannot keep friends.

And there are those who think they are know-it-all. Don't know who they are? It's those people who gives advice to people who doesn't need them. Come on! I have my own principles to follow, own ways to do my stuff. As long as I am happy, I am fine with it!

Then there are those stuborn people. Who REFUSES TO ADMIT THAT THEY MAY BE WRONG AFTER ALL. Who insist that they are right. Who refuses to step outside their wonderful world to see how the others feel at that point in time.

U combine meeting these people in a day.... u get the idea of how frustrated I am today.

And way too often, I met people who likes to shrink responsibility, especially in a team. Those people who thinks that "I have done enough" so the rest is up to u. I mean come on, if the others are unable to do it, HELP LAH. U won't die right?

I admired myself for keeping my mouth shut with all these people today. I mean, at any one point I can definitely explode and scream at that one person but I kept my cool.

I am like that. Don't ever EVER pissed me off. It's easy to piss me off, but to piss me off to that level whereby I need a huge amount of self control to shut myself up, u are in deep trouble.

What is exactly happening to the world and people these days? Why is it that there are people who always try to make the world a worse place to live in rather than happy? What is it with people who can't try to make others happy? What is it with people that they always want to make people and the people around him miserable????

I question myself this right now, and I have no answers. I simply don't understand....

As a complementary post to the previous one, there are people who are really ugly. And it's sad that they don't know about it...

Ok, I am in a foul mood right now. Don't even try to reason with me why my views are wrong ok. Leave that conversation to some other time or else I am sure going to bite ur head off with my rude comments. I am coming close to scold the f*** word on everything that I can use that word on.

And I missed da jie... I missed talking to her...

P.S. On a side note, I always believe that a fight is always at fault with the people involved in the fight. That is why I try not to get into a fight. Because it will make me from a person who is right to someone who may be at fault...

P.S. I just realised that my post these days are getting really emo... I don't know it's stress or just me growing up. But if it is the latter, I don't want to grow up!

Post Note

Talked to XY, snapped me out of it, and he said that defensive people has a huge ego, because they can't be told that they are wrong. So, the more defensive people are, the bigger their ego. I never thought of that theory before, so I LOVE THAT THEORY!!