Sunday, June 25, 2006
I have enough shit thrown in my face
I sometimes wonder, am I paranoid? What is the line of feeling too sensitive? Am I too sensitive?
For that reason, I tolerate all the shit thrown in my face till I can't take it. Then everything burst.
Then I ask myself again, am I too stupid? Kenna bullied also dunno? Should I even say something beforehand?
Walid once said that I was too sensitive and I was totally thrown off-course. I dont blame him, I never did. I think he just said it out for fun, for the sake of teasing me. Somemore given the circumstances...I dont think he meant it the way it sounds. I took it as a passing comment. But I am ultra-sensitive when people say I sensitive. I start to wonder, am I not tolerating enough shit? Where is the line?
I dislike it when I was treated unimportant. Or at least, if I put this person as 100% important, I expect the person to put me as 100% important. Ok, cut people some slack. If I know the person KNOWS that I put him/her 100% important, I expect him/her to put me 100% as well. Yes, the rule of reciprocal. Ok, I am super sensitive now. But isn't this what everyone wants? To be treated the same way we treat them?
I said about this before, and I said this again. When it comes to organising outings, everyone need to be careful. No one loves the idea of kenna left out (no worries, it is not me YET). Certain times maybe it is okay to be left out. But when the circumstances twirked and turned, it is a different story. When it happens more than once, it gets too much. I am saying this here, because I am already bursting about this and I know I have to get it out. But I am sure that I am trying to save some 'face' again. Whether the person reads this or not and realise that I am talking about him/her, it is up to fate.
I sound super emotional right? But I dont think so. You can joke ard me and the jokes will just bounces off me like a ping pong ball. But I am kinda sticky about my principle of reciprocal. Perhaps I should try to relax that rule of mine a little...
.......I dont even know whether today I should sign off as cheerios anot.....
For that reason, I tolerate all the shit thrown in my face till I can't take it. Then everything burst.
Then I ask myself again, am I too stupid? Kenna bullied also dunno? Should I even say something beforehand?
Walid once said that I was too sensitive and I was totally thrown off-course. I dont blame him, I never did. I think he just said it out for fun, for the sake of teasing me. Somemore given the circumstances...I dont think he meant it the way it sounds. I took it as a passing comment. But I am ultra-sensitive when people say I sensitive. I start to wonder, am I not tolerating enough shit? Where is the line?
I dislike it when I was treated unimportant. Or at least, if I put this person as 100% important, I expect the person to put me as 100% important. Ok, cut people some slack. If I know the person KNOWS that I put him/her 100% important, I expect him/her to put me 100% as well. Yes, the rule of reciprocal. Ok, I am super sensitive now. But isn't this what everyone wants? To be treated the same way we treat them?
I said about this before, and I said this again. When it comes to organising outings, everyone need to be careful. No one loves the idea of kenna left out (no worries, it is not me YET). Certain times maybe it is okay to be left out. But when the circumstances twirked and turned, it is a different story. When it happens more than once, it gets too much. I am saying this here, because I am already bursting about this and I know I have to get it out. But I am sure that I am trying to save some 'face' again. Whether the person reads this or not and realise that I am talking about him/her, it is up to fate.
I sound super emotional right? But I dont think so. You can joke ard me and the jokes will just bounces off me like a ping pong ball. But I am kinda sticky about my principle of reciprocal. Perhaps I should try to relax that rule of mine a little...
.......I dont even know whether today I should sign off as cheerios anot.....
