This is going to be one spiteful long angry entry.

I may be speaking in riddles in this entry, but that is because I am trying to give some people "face" here even though I dont think they are reading this. Don't expect to understand.

I believe in what I believe. Xy would have told u I stick to my principles and beliefs.

I basically follows this: Treat that person the way u wan him/her to treat u. No point expecting more right? If the treatment is lesser or lower that expected, chuck the person out of ur life. That person is just plain sucky.

Backstabbers and hypocities are in this category.

Don't get me wrong, I had not met anyone of them recently. At least I don't think so. Maybe a couple...but I have not know them long enough to know whether they are a full-blow backstabbers or hypocities.

But the office politics are heating up.

Mango said that she is looking for mncs for perms because of the politics. But I dont see how bigger co have better politics. My co cant be considered as small. My previous job b4 uni was a smaller co than my latest co but the place is not half as bad. In fact, I think that when there are lesser people to deal with, the politics are less harsh! I would just wan to look for a place whereby there are like-minded people ard.

Ok, enough of riddles. It's now open talk.

About me. I am a hard person to understand, as far as I know. I open my heart easily, as long as I feel sincerity and I feel that I can trust the person. The problem with me is that I am guilable. I trust people too easily.

I said right before at the beginning of these post that, I give people the same kind of treatment they had given me. If I honestly like the person, he/she would know. If I don't, the nice-ness will only come on the surface.

I always gives the wrong impression to people. Crazy, talkative, immature, naive, not serious, happy-go-lucky, whatever. But I am here to say, most of the impressions are WRONG. I repeat, WRONG. How many times have I not been serious? Yes perhaps in jokes, but not anything else. How many times had I defy my parents of not going to polys? I insist of going to a JC for the purpose of completing my education early. I still persist after I did really badly for 1st yr even though I have thought of it. I worked my ass off to get an A1 in higher chinese during my O levels (adeline knows that) when I finally set my heart to continue with it after I did badly for my express chinese. I worked my ass off too for both of my maths when I was a utter failure of it in sec3 ( I got e8 and d7). I ended up with 2 A2s at O levels. I know I sound like bragging, but I am not. I am serious in my goals. I am sick and tired of people saying me that I am not serious because I am not. People never understand that, the only time I was not serious, if when I am having a blast or when I am joking. I was never not serious about my life.

There are others too, like immature, naive, talkative....pls...people for gdness sake, come on.

I always gives the utter wrongly impressions to people. I am not tt superfical. I hate it. I spent some part of my life trying to please people when I realise that I can't. I got tired of it. And now I live by my own rules. And now I know too. Don't judge a person too early. First impressions are always wrong.

And I despises people who put others down. It just proves how insecure they are about themselves to put others down in order to put themselves in better light.

I kinda see myself in a couple of people I had worked with, and thus I promised myself right now that, I will try to change.

I have pictures to post, but I will probably do it later. This post is getting too long.

Cheerios.