I am really upset, really upset, really upset.

I am having a big argument with someone. I tried my hardest not to, but it happened. It has to happened.

I have learnt a few things from Irene ever since we took the same modules last sem.

But Irene, please, don't ask me what's going on ok? I don't wan to talk about it. If u want to help me, cheer me up or something. Just don't ask. Please.

I just thought that given our friendship, you might try to make things right for me. Be fair to me. Because if things are the other way round, I will do it for you. I can promise you I will. But you are not. It's heartbreaking to see how you try to explain yourself but not attempting to help me. I am not saying your previous efforts are not noticed, but I thought it would be more. It hurts me to see that you doubt the last 8/9 years, because all I have done was to be a friend to you. I am hoping that u will be a friend to me this time and help me.

But it's not happening. I don't believe that u are not trying. But I don't know what to think, because all I can think of is, I know u can help me with my request but it's not happening.

I am extremely hurt by this. I think u are feeling the same too, but without this "arguement" we are not going to get past this stage. Or else, u might think that I am fine but don't know that I am hurting inside. I don't think I can do it this time.

All I can think of now this, should I tell this to jul?

I am crying over this. I know, I teared up when the biz policy fiasco happened. I teared up when I am watching Pride and Prejudice. I teared up when I was watching Ghost Whisperer. I even teared up when my mum scolded me for something I didn't do. But I haven't teared up for something like this ever since.... sec2? When we haven't grown up.

Tears only happen when someone close to you hurts u badly.

I don't know what to think. I don't know what to do. I know we can get past this phase of friendship, but right now I don't know what to do. Tell me what should I do?

I feel like a fifth wheel. An extra. Invisible.

What should I do?

I feel so lost right now.

Tell me what should I do?

I am not strong enough for this.

Tell me what to do?

U tell me what should I do?

Lord please tell me...

Someone please tell me...

Tell me...

Help me...